But its been almost a month since I've even updated, and it goes pretty much the same for everyone.
If you guys want to keep in touch my RL journal is lokojo7!
Feel free to add me, loves!
Jimmy Brooks (JBizzle in the Hizzouse)'s Journal
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10th December 2005
Its sad, but I think this community has finally just fallen through the cracks *sniff* :
But its been almost a month since I've even updated, and it goes pretty much the same for everyone.
If you guys want to keep in touch my RL journal is lokojo7!
Feel free to add me, loves!
11th November 2005
So I lied, I'm not going to elaborate on my date with Emma. She can tell the story better than I, I'm sure. Since most of it involved just her doing things as I sat waiiiiiitng. It was a great night though. :
Craig and I are talkin right now about how everyone seems to have disappeared. We've come o the conclusion that everyone other than he and I were abducted by aliens. And we're left to rot in bordem. You all are having alien cake and alien ice cream and a big fancy alien party, and we're rotting in bordem. Gee thanks, guys :-P.
Well I'm bout to bizounce. HOLLA!
((my computer will be getting fixed so I have to send it in to dell. so don't expect me on much in the next weekish goes for JT too, obviously))
6th November 2005
23rd October 2005
Emma cooked for me. IT WAS OFF THE HEAZY FO SHEAZY FO REAZY. Damn that girl can cook. She even had the whole ambiance set up. It was hot. :
13th October 2005
8th October 2005
Emma and I went to a haunted house and then on a hay ride together. It was fun. Although, we learned something very important. Making out in public is hazardous to your health - or at least a bit dangerous. :
And she and I are officially a couple now. Took us long enough?
7th October 2005
I AM A LOSER WHO FORGOT TO UPDATE! Sorry guys! And I have nothing interesting to say because I've been so bogged down with homework and all that jazz. Um... For whatever reason ((like AIM SUCKING and wasn't letting me im her)) Haze and I have delayed our trip again. But soon. Hazel, let me know when you're ready. :
Umm yeah so I'm just going to end with a game. Go to google. Type "(your name) needs" and hit search. Then post the top ten-ish results.
Jimmy needs your support
Jimmy needs your help
Jimmy needs to fix what has been changed in the past
Jimmy needs to purchase 60 mattresses
Jimmy needs some schooling
Jimmy needs to take a break
Jimmy needs to sit back
Jimmy needs to do what he's really good at
Jimmy needs to feel confident
Jimmy needs someone he can rescue
UHH now lets play another game. Everyone leave a comment for a potential reason that I, Jimmy brooks, needs to purchase 60 matresses! LMAO.
16th September 2005
So I have been up to... school. And thats about it. Homework too. I went out to eat at the dot with Paige the other night, which was fun. I don't get to hang out with her enough. We just talked about a lot of stuff. :
Haze and I are gonna be taking a week off of school next week. We're gonna do a college tour from here to windsor stopping at different colleges on the way down there. It should be fun. And we'll be able to get the feel of many different colleges, get our options open.
Paige said she plans on going to the place Dylan goes, so she'll be around here. And I told her, and I mean it, I am gonna do my damndest to have us keep in touch. After all we have been through way to much to see our friendships fall a part. Way too much.
Hey, Miss Nelson, can you come help me with my homework tonight? ;)
10th September 2005
Sorry I haven't done much with anyone, outside of classes. I've just had a lot on my mind.
But we should change that. I really want to hang out with the following people: Paige, Hazel, Marco, Ash, Craig, Emma, and of course, Liz. Now if your name is not on that list its cool too, just call me and we can hang out! If your name IS on that list you have no excuse so pick up your phone and call me ;)
Haze, when do you want to go on a college tour with me? I've got brochures for a bunch of places from here to windsor, we can take like a week off and make it a road trip? :)
Hey... when did I become Jimmy Brooks, the asshole aka heartbreaker? Its like I don't know how to be loyal anymore. Craig must have rubbed off on me
2nd September 2005
I haven't seen or talked to Liz in weeks now. :
Really, the only person I've hung out with lately is Emma. I've seen Ash a bit too.
I feel like an ass again though. Because of Liz. I've become a guy who cheats apparently. First I cheated on Haze with Liz. Now cheating on Liz with Em. But in all fairness, both times it was because Haze or Liz were never around. I know it doesn't make what I did right. But... I dunno. Its like right now, I don't even know if Liz still likes me at all. She could have at least called me or sent me an email or something to let me know she was okay and all that. I mean she doesn't even answer my calls anymore :-/
And I really am falling for Emma. I have been since the beginning of the summer. Marco made me realize this the otherday when he told me "I see the way you look at her, Jimmy." and well... its true. She's slowly but surely managed to steal my heart when I had it guarded. I had it gaurded from Haze and Liz even. But the part of me they couldn't unlock, somehow, Emma did. Its kind of scary.
28th August 2005
so you know how I was saying I wanted to have a party. I have a better idea. Who's up for skipping school for a day? Everyone is invited. My dad's company can hook me up with as many tickets as needed to the end of summer music fest that goes from noon to midnight with various concerts and they have all kinds of things to do, like carnival games and rides, etc... But its thursday. and like I said EVERYONE is invited! :
Let me know! I'll get a list of people playing later. Oh yeah, anyone want to crash at my hosue wednesday or thursday night, or both, lol are welcome, just make sure to bring a pillow and a swimming suit. Unless your Emma Nelson, because knowing me I'll end up throwing her in fully clothed :-P
((I'll host a chat thursday night for this but we can rp that its during the day and we're skipping. UNLESS paige's court date will be that day, then we can do this next thursday, lol.))
24th August 2005
22nd August 2005
19th August 2005
11th August 2005
Yesterday Hazel and Ash came over for pizza and a movie. Hazel left after the movie so Ash and I went swimming. She thinks Craig could kick my ass, but I thinks she's crazy. Marco was supposed to come over but then he couldn't. :( :
Then later on I went up to the hospital to visit Liz. She was talking about cloudwalking. LMAO.
After that Emma came over and we went swimming. Hahah I threw her in the pool when she was still fully dressed. I'm evil like that. But I let her dry her clothes in our dryer and let her wear some of my clothes while they were drying. She really did look like a cute little gangsta then.
Hazel is probably coming over again to hang out today sometime. And thats about whats going on in the world of Jimmy Brooks.
OH YEAH. Since I'm not in a wheelchair anymore I got a new screen name. HotLikeWoahIKnow
9th August 2005
Hazel came over again last night. We watched Scream. I know she's seen it at least 100 times but it still scared her. It was cute. I'm glad we're hanging out more again. :
Liz is back in the hospital having surgery for those who didn't know. I'm gonna stop by for a visit. Isn't it funny that she and I met in the hospital. Of all places. LOL
6th August 2005
Whats up playas?! Jbizzle's in the hizzouse. LOL. Sorry, I'm a bit wound up and hyper right now. Not sure why. :
Yesterday I went to the dot with Hazel. We also went swimming back at my house afterwards. It was a lot of fun. We talked about a lot of things. Like the possibility of going to the same college together. We decided to go on college tours together when we go, anyone else interested in joining us? I'm so glad I got to see her, its been too, too long.
Then last night I went over to Liz's. I was mean, I told her I wasn't coming over because my dad wanted to bond with me. But really I just wanted to surprise her so I showed up at her door 15 minutes later. You should have seen the look on her face. It was too cute. We at pizza and spent the entire night talking and cuddling. Yes... talking... It was nice. I like how I can talk to her about anything, and how we can take something so painful to us and turn it around, make it a lighter burden by joking about it. I can't do that with most people, not like I can with her. Thats what I need right now. Its helping me heal from the emotional pain of the shooting more than anything else is right now.
OKAY LISTEN UP. IF YOUR NAME IS PAIGE, CRAIG, ASH, EMMA, OR MARCO YOU'RE ASSES BETTER CALL ME, EMAIL ME, IM ME, OR SOMETHING AND WE'RE HANGING OUT. ITS BEEN TOOOOOO LONG! KTHNXBYE.
I'm gonna bizounce now. Peace.
1st August 2005
So yesterday I came home from LA. I had a great time there, but I had to get home for Doctors appointments and crap like that. It was fun, for a few days my mind was off of everything. Although I won't lie, we used my chair at Disneyland primarily as an excuse to cut in front of everyone! HAHA no waiting in line for us. I met Liz's dad, which was... uncomfortable at first, but its cool now. It was really comforting to be able to fall asleep next to someone and wake up with them still there. I don't know, but it just seems like ever since I got shot my whole world has been topsy-turvey so to speak. I feel so... helpless and alone all the time, even when I know I shouldn't. The nightmares are awful. But for those few nights, falling asleep listening to someone breathing next to me, it wasn't so bad. I wasn't so scared. I wasn't so alone. Docs say I should start being more open about this, and then the fears will fade with time or some other after-school-special pep talk I get. Whatever. :
Anyways, got home from LA yesterday, and I talked to Hazel a little bit. We're actually going to the movies tomorrow afternoon. Which should be cool. I can't even think of the last time I saw that girl :-P Its, cool though, I'm glad I'll be able to hang out with her tomorrow.
After talking to Haze, I went over to Emma's and surprised her. She loved the Mickey I made all gangsta like by adding a pimp chain that I gave to her. What can I say, a pimped out gangsta Mickey for my little gangsta ho ;) She was making strawberry smoothies, yet somehow, we ended up wearing most of them? LOL. It was fun. But I didn't stay long. After all I had to go home and shower off the sticky smoothie :-P
27th July 2005
I told Hazel about Liz and I tonight. It was really hard to do. I never wanted to hurt her. :
It's sad the way things happened between us. I mean we grew apart because it hurt her to see me so... broken. But it hurt me she wasn't there. And then I fucked it up even more by cheating on her with Liz.
I just didn't see how we could work things out with as much damage as we were doing. So we talked about it. We're not together right now, but I told her, and completely mean it, that I didn't want us to be over forever, for good. Because, a part of me is very much attatched to her, and I would love for the day to come when we could be the way we used to be. But I think the only way to ever hope to get there is to start over again, as friends.
It tore me up to tell her that. It tears me up thinking I made her cry. But if we kept on like we were we'd only be more hurt in the end, and possible destroying all hopes for a 2nd chance or even a friendship.
That being said, I'm not going to be around the next few days, so I'll see you all when I'm back in the big T-O!
25th July 2005
First off, let me tell you some great news, for those of you who haven't seen me the last two days like Ash and Emma have. The day after the dance when I went in for routine doctor check up and physical therapy that I have EVERY day, I told them about how I had gotten up a couple times and danced. They were impressed, even if it was just for slow dances, and they got all gung-ho on speeding my recovery. They keep calling me the "miracle kid". So here's the exciting part. I'm on crutches now! Probably will be for about a month as I'm gaining strength back and healing still. But my wheelchair, well its only for when I'm really exhausted and need it. Exciting, right?! I thought so :-D Ash was the first to see me on them, she was pretty excited too. :
Emma came over last night, which was fun. I was glad she wanted to come over. We had to draw what we were going to do out of a hat, because we were indecisive. Ended up choosing movie, much to Emma's dissapointment because she wanted strip poker :-P, so we watched Constatine. My little tough gangsta chick was scurred, so I had to be the thug I am and hold her to protect her from the big scary movie. And don't listen to her, Jimmy Brooks was not SCARED, he just got startled, LOL. It was fun. We were talking after the movie, I didn't realize how late it was until I got really tired.
22nd July 2005
So the dance was pretty... interesting? It was something alright. Hazel stood me up... :
Ash did me the honor and danced with me, my very first dance, standing up after the shooting. Exciting right? Thats what I thought. I mean it was hard, my legs still being weak and sore. But exhillerating none the less. And who better to share it with then my good friend, Ash? :) Speaking of whom, I'm still waiting on a phone call so I can take her out to dinner and a movie tonight. She's got so much on her mind right now, I want to help her relax and unwind.
Then Liz and I danced
After the dance Liz and I went to the park to talk
There was a whole bunch of other drama at the dance, none that I paid much attention to. I was too
20th July 2005
What a day yesterday. What a day. Let me see if I can even remember everything that happened... :
I talked to Hazel a bit online in the morning.
While I was waiting for Hazel to show up, Liz IMed me saying she was getting bored and wanted to go do something. Our nurses let us go to the phsysical therapy pool. Mine were excited that I was all willing to try stuff already, being that most people aren't so... I don't know the word I'm looking for... determined I guess. It was fun but I don't think the nurses liked all the splashing around we were doing, they didn't think it was taking it easy enough.
The doctors had me STAND yesterday. With help and everything, but standing none the less. It was an awesome feeling. Paige came by to visit and we talked, it was fun. She was so excited when I told her I got to stand. In fact, she was the first person who knew. Moments after she left Emma showed up with video games. She's pretty good, but not quite good enough to beat the master ;) Anytime my little gangsta wants a rematch all she has to do is call, because it was fun kicking her ass at Dead or Alive - although... she almost had me. Girl has some skills. She tells me I should start doing that thing called reading, so I might. We were watching Billy Madison when the nurses made her leave so I could have yet another check up.
I talked to ash for a few minutes online until Emma showed up again with Craig this time. She rapped for us. You all need to recognize she is the queen and needs to be worshipped, yo! LMAO. It was a horrible white girl attempt at rapping but it made my day. Craig, Emma, and I were having a blast just blazing on each other. Then Ash stopped in for a surprise visit. Which made things a bit awkward. Emma left. Then Ash shortly after left. Then I tried talking with Craig for a bit, but doctors made him go so I could do more Phsyical Therapy.
Today I haven't seen or talked to anyone really. Just been working on getting my strength back. My legs are so week from not being able to use them for so long. But it feels so great to stand, or feels good just to be able to, being that it actually hurts like hell when I do.
The dance is tomorrow night? Hazel and I will be going... I BEGGGGGED my doctors to let me out of here for the night. I had to sign an oath in blood that I will take it easy, okay maybe not, but I felt like I did.
Lets see if today is as eventful as yesterday. I'm going to go down to Liz's room and see how she's doing today. Maybe she and I can go down to Craig's room and check on him. I really don't know why he decided he wanted to be cool like us and end up in the hospital, but I hope he's okay.
19th July 2005
I'm exhausted. So this update will be short.Just cliff notes version of my day: :
I had my surgery today. It went good :)
Miss Nelson herself visited me before hand, which was a nice surprise. And bought me some bling bling. She managed to make me much more relaxed which was good being that I had surgery a couple hours after she left.
Rick tried to talk to me.
After my surgery Liz and Paige came over to my room, then Ash and Craig joined us.
It was fun at first. Some drama happened. Liz had to leave for a bit but came back and she was fine. Since she wasn't feeling to good, I made some room for her, so we both layed down and watched The Labryinth. Ash and Craig were busy talking.
I was kind of upset I didn't get to see Hazel today. I thought for sure she'd come to see how my surgery went. Oh well. I'll see her soon enough.
Liz and Ash had left so Craig and I got to talk. Yes guys do talk. Its not only about sex, sports, sleep :-P That was good, I needed to vent a bit.
Now its time for rest. Night everyone :)
18th July 2005
What's been happening in the world of Jimmy Brooks lately? A lot. Unfortunately, most of this has been doctors visits and physical therapy and not nearly enough time for my friends, and definately not enough time for Hazel... I talked to her for a few minutes today, which only made me miss her more. :
Craig showed up at my doorstep randomly. It was more of a run away from Ash's and need somewhere to go so he didnt' get caught than it was a surprise visit. But its cool. We ened up going to the Dot with Ash and Paige.
While we were at the Dot, however, I got a page from the hospital. I had to go into mee this specialist. While I was anxiously waiting talking to him I was just going up and down this hallway when Liz approached me. We had never really officially met or hung out before today, but she was cool. She made the wait a little less difficult to say the least. I can see this as a start of a great friendship, I mean, how could we not be good friends since we both were pimpin the chairs like gangstas. See, Emma, my gangsta methods are reachin out to others now. It will be a Toronto Epidemic.
So how did the appointment go? Well... I guess you could say good. Although, it landed me a spot in the hospital for the next few days. I have surgery tomorrow afternoon sometime. Not sure when. They have to do it tomorrow because the specialist -Dr. Richards - won't be in town for too long.
I haven't had the time to process everything. But here is a quick cliff notes version: The bullet had damaged the bone of one of my lower verebrae. The vertebrae then was able to slip forward and is putting pressure on my nerve. The paralysis is actually my central nerve being severely pinched. The surgery would fix the bone, or replace it with something, and then fuse it to the one above it. Highly dangerous. My only option. But I should be able to walk once I recover from the surgery and get used to using my legs again.
What's a few more weeks or even a couple of months when I thought it was going to be the rest of my life?
So I'm excited, but at the same time nervous about being in the hospital.
Hazel, try not to worry about me too much. I'll be better before you know it. I promise the night I come home from the hospital will be devoted entirely to spending time with you. Love you!
Oh and if anyone wants to visit, i'm in room 408.
15th July 2005
I go in this afternoon for more tests and x-rays to see what kind of improvement has happened. Wish me luck. :
So word on the block is Emma Nelson is gangsta. haha, or at least thats what the word will be at the end of the summer once I've taught her everything I know. At the same time I'm writing Gangsta Talk Defined by Jimmy Brooks and How To Be Gangsta: Teacher's edition. Look for my name on the international best seller list.
It's worth it to have Emma say things like "fo shizzle, my nizzle" LMAO.
So there's a radio station holding a Black & White affair, huh? I'm not sure I want to go. I don't want to be the kid that everyone stairs at because he's in a wheelchair... It's one thing at Degrassi, where people know me, and knew me before this. It's harder when people only see the chair and that is their first and only impression of me.
On the other hand, seeing Hazel all dressed up and shaking her ass will make it worth it. ;-) Well... that is if she wants to go... I guess I shouldn't assume that. As long as she does, y'all can expect an apperence by the one and only Jimmy Brooks. Word.
Time for me to bizounce and head up to the hospital... Holla! :)