It's sad the way things happened between us. I mean we grew apart because it hurt her to see me so... broken. But it hurt me she wasn't there. And then I fucked it up even more by cheating on her with Liz.
I just didn't see how we could work things out with as much damage as we were doing. So we talked about it. We're not together right now, but I told her, and completely mean it, that I didn't want us to be over forever, for good. Because, a part of me is very much attatched to her, and I would love for the day to come when we could be the way we used to be. But I think the only way to ever hope to get there is to start over again, as friends.
It tore me up to tell her that. It tears me up thinking I made her cry. But if we kept on like we were we'd only be more hurt in the end, and possible destroying all hopes for a 2nd chance or even a friendship.
That being said, I'm not going to be around the next few days, so I'll see you all when I'm back in the big T-O!